Facebook Turns 16 Today…
Another year has gone by… and I still remain forgotten, and unacknowledged.
… I don’t really have much to say about it.
I always have a little extra hope in my heart that Mark would remember to think of me as the Anniversary of the launch of Facebook nears… and of course the day of I end up disappointed and it just turns out to be a very sad day for me because I get caught up in memories of every little thing we talked about back then and how the morning of February 4th 2004 Mark was just so excited about launching Facebook when he messaged me and I was just so happy…
I’ve reached out to a lot of people over the years… in hopes that someone would find a way to reconnect me with Mark…
I emailed Elliott Schrage January 14th… hoping that he’d read my email and let Mark Zuckerberg know that I’ve been trying to reconnect… I haven’t gotten a reply back… I expected that but I tried to remain hopeful.
… I saw Mark’s Silicon Slopes Tech Summit interview the other day.
When Mark was asked who his mentors were and who does he go to for advice… He didn’t mention anyone by name… he went on to state that he’s more religious now.
… Mark and I have been out of touch for a very long time. It’s been years since he came to me for advice… but in the beginning he always came to me.
When Mark was asked this question just days before facebook’s 16th anniversary… I just hoped that in the back of his mind… he’d remember to think of me… and our promises, our partnership, the encouragement, influence and advice that I offered… but obviously it seems unlikely that he cares to remember me at all.
As for Mark’s comment on being more religious…
That’s so wonderful to hear.
But I feel like when it comes to religion… If you’re truly seeking knowledge and understanding of God your focus should be on following the word of God and self reflect… make an effort to be better and do better, make peace with others and etc.
… I just feel like anyone who is truly making an effort to be right with God… should find enough compassion and empathy in their heart to know that It’s not right to leave a person in such a vulneranle position such as the one I have been left in.
To be forgotten and ignored… especially discredited by others that knew my involvemet is absolutely dehumanizing as if I am a worthless, disposable person and my feelings and my life doesn’t matter.
Because of this my very own life story with my early involvement and silent partnership with Facebook… was stolen from me. It’s not something I can share proud n openly with my family and people I meet… because Mark has not cared to confirm things so I’d come off as a liar… or assumed I’m a crazy person like my mother.
Mark knew that I had a fear of being made out to look crazy. It’s because all my life… once people knew my Mom had Schizophrenia I’d get teased and made fun of that I’d end up crazy like her… that stuff really bothered me most of my life.
… it’s a different kind of hurt when you open up to someone about your fears and etc. and they just end up contributing to making that fear a reality.
… I don’t know for certain if Mark remembers that or not… so I can’t say for certain that any of this has been intentional.
The other day someone thought it would be nice to troll me on Facebook. Making multiple comments about “Delusional Obsession”…
It is ignorant to judge and make ridiculous assumptions about people.
I am sensitive to assumptions and accusations in relation to Mental Health. My mother has Schizophrenia. Mental Health isn’t something to laugh at.
I know what my story looks like to people that find my story hard to believe or think it’s absolutely ludacris based on lack of physical proof and public acknowledgement.
But it is what it is… unfortunately I have a sad and difficult story; a story that doesn’t seem to fit into a mould that many people expect… truth is always harder for people to believe and accept for some reason…
It’s difficult to tell the truth and be left alone in a position to look like a liar or “Delusional”… and actually have people think these untrue things.
I put my story out there for free on my own expense so people can see and understand the actual reality of my situation. Rather than keep believing a fictional story.
These days I don’t really have time and motivation to keep writting blogs… blogs never really were my thing. I have more problems in my life than I can handle right now… stuff way over my head… and that is one of the reasons I have been trying to grab Mark’s attention.
I was always there for Mark when he needed me… I gave him so much advice… and right now I wish that just this one time that I could reconnect and get some advice.
Smile by Sidewalk Prophets
“Happiness is wonderful
But it doesn’t stick around
Walkin’ on sunshine
Then here come the clouds
You can laugh or you can cry
When it all falls apart
But I believe the more you laugh
The more you heal the heart
There’s always a reason
To always choose joy
There’s something deeper
That the world can’t destroy
When you think you can’t
Get up and dance
There’s a bigger plan
And you’ve got a reason
When you think you can’t.”