Merry Christmas?

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It’s Christmas Eve. Merry Christmas!

Christmas has always been a confusing time for me yet it is my favourite time of the year… No; it’s not because of presents. I’m one of those people that always thinks of everyone yet nobody ever cares to think of me. Which I didn’t always take very well, but I learned to accept that reality through the years. So why is it my favourite time of year then? Christmas is my favourite time of year because it is the only time of year where most people tend to be more kind and charitable to others. Witnessing people being kind and thoughtful to others is always nice to see. It’s passing by strangers in the street that say Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays. It’s the Christmas movies on TV that almost always have some useful moral to be learned. It’s reading or watching stories in the News about people helping others that I really enjoy. It’s also a time I do a lot of self reflection While also asking myself why is it that during the holiday season people seem to be more kinder, more helpful more giving to others? Why is this behaviour generally so limited during the rest of the year? Are we just programmed that way? Kind of superficial in observation.

I grew up having mixed feelings about Christmas. I grew up very poor, my mom was a single mother, she has Schizophrenia. A few times we’d have a tree for Christmas and, other times my mom would throw our tree in the garbage and say Christmas is evil and sometimes we just didn’t have the money for a Christmas tree so I’d make my own Christmas tree out of news paper or anything I could find. One time I took some wire coat Hangers and taped them together onto a piece of cardboard and wrapped silver Christmas garland that I found around the coat hangers… it was kind of cute I remember being proud that I created something out of stuff I had found but… it was also sad looking at it knowing we couldn’t afford a tree and when I’d express my sadness over not having a proper tree my mom would say nobody is supposed to partake in Christmas anyway. so that is what always made Christmas a little confusing for me. I never had a big beautiful tree thus far in my lifetime, while that used to bother me every Christmas I am okay with that now. The last 6 years I had a little Charlie Brown Christmas tree as a reminder that I never had the Christmas tree that I always dreamed of having,I really loved that tree! But my cat broke it last year! So no Charlie Brown Tree this Christmas. Maybe next year.

How do I feel about Mark Zuckerberg and facebook being in the news a lot lately?

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Picture of Mark Zuckerberg from CNN Business

Someone asked me a few weeks ago “How do you feel about Mark Zuckerberg and facebook being in the news a lot lately?”

To answer the question in all honesty it doesn’t sit with me very well. Like a lot of people I feel disappointed but my disappointment goes a little deeper because I also can’t help but feel like If only I wasn’t alienated from facebook I could have helped prevent a lot of things that has happened in the past, and I think a lot of people may genuinely feel that they too could have helped the situation but the difference is I used to look out for Mark and his best interests weather it was personal or to do with facebook and I just naturally fell into that role because I genuinely cared about Mark and believed in him even at times when he was very discouraged and didn’t believe in himself.

Reflecting back on my friendship with Mark, Mark and I made a good team. I had a different way about looking at things; I’ve always been a deep thinker, an over analyzer, I’d predict the outcome of things all the time. I am intuitive and I would constantly challenge Mark to do better.

Besides Mark Zuckerberg himself I like to think that there is nobody else in this world that cares about facebook and the integrity behind it more than me. Nobody knows how true that is other than Mark that’s one reason why Mark insisted that my initial be secretly hidden in the facebook logo, but Perhaps Mark forgot those important facts long ago.

I know Mark surrounds himself with all kinds of advisors with various professional credentials and at times It is probably quite difficult to figure out which advice is best and what is not when things come down to ultimate integrity of facebook. It has got to be difficult at times with over 2 Billion users Worldwide and to have to please everyone; mind you everyone has very different needs, wants and expectations especially Governments around the World like China. With the massive number of employees at facebook I can only imagine the challenges and difficulty on monitoring everyone’s work and decisions made. Most Employers hope their employees do their job and that is having faith that they will always do the right thing. As a speculator it seems like decisions made by employees need to be more closely looked into and reviewed more often. I think it is impossible for anyone else to fully put their hearts into facebook like Mark Zuckerberg himself does there for there is going to be half assed advice and advice that is just terrible from time to time no matter how wise, how professional, how educated an advisor or an employee is and I can only imagine how hard it must be from time to time making sure you’re making the right decisions and choosing to listen to the right advice. Nobody is perfect. People make mistakes all the time. I think I proved myself in the past to Mark that my integrity was exceptional. He knew he could always faithfully count on me but I think influence of others may have helped distort that bit of reality because here I am still left out in the dark, vulnerable and on my own after all these years which has impacted my life very negatively. I cared a great deal about Mark’s dream to connect the World he knew that because I proved it in the time I spent offering advice and ideas while attentively making plans for his future, he trusted me. This desire to pursue his dream started long before being accepted into Harvard. Mark programed all kinds of various things including a program that completely destroyed my Hard drive on my first computer which was an Acer Aspire T100 Desktop, I’ll never forget that! and if that incident had never happened I wouldn’t have learned how to fix computers all on my own. Mark also made Zuck Net for his Dad’s Dental office and before facebook there was facemash and a few earlier variations of what would later become facebook. I don’t know why those details are purposely left out of the facebook story. I’m guessing and assuming it was an advised decision that was made to leave out of the Story. Some people may or may not remember Mark used to use MySpace to get people to join his social media sites. There are a lot of facts left out including my influential part of the story of course and I was in favor at the time to leave my story out because privacy was just more important to me.

As years went by and I got older I started to realize the importance of not holding back the truth especially when it comes to your life story. All your experiences, the people you meet on your life journey, the success, the failures, the hard times, the best times, the challenging times, the mistakes made, all the moments and experiences that automatically engrave themselves in our memories make us who we are. It is easy to forget and become forgotten in life when we leave those little important facts out. If you don’t speak up for yourself and leave important things out It’s like throwing away credentials and identity that you may never get back. That is a mistake I made that I live with everyday. I am not acknowledged for my early influence on facebook and the way years have been coming and going without any change in the situation I probably never will be acknowledged and the thing that troubles me a lot about that is wondering if Mark Zuckerberg really thinks I am okay with that and what happened between our friendship, collaboration and business agreements. I was never okay with what happened between Mark and my silent partnership with facebook. My life was negatively impacted young and because of that I wasted almost half of my life away thus far. Hiding myself from the world hardly ever leaving my home.

Integrity has always been important to me. Everyone that had ever had the pleasure of knowing me know that. Often I’ve been told I’m the most conscientious person they have ever known and I wish that Mark would remember that fact about me and remember that even though I am not perfect. I am human, I have feelings and everything that happened really hurt me a lot.

Earlier on in 2004 I already sensed and knew it was only a matter of time that I’d be forgotten and every promise made to me would be broken because I have always been aware that Money, Fame, Power and Image change people and I also warned Mark that Greed of others will likely find a way to taint facebook‘s integrity and to be careful of that.
and that is what I feel is partly to blame but that is just my speculation on the situation. I’ve been in the dark all these years, I don’t know the situation or how things are handled at facebook today so I can’t really comment too much.

Seeing facebook a lot more in the news this past year… It is just is a constant reminder that facebook forever haunts me… and no matter what It always will there is no escaping it.

I live my life everyday carrying a huge burden on my soul that I was not able to be there for Mark and facebook the way that I wanted to from day 1. Seeing and hearing about Mark Zuckerberg and facebook more and more these days is hard and it just makes me wish that I could speak to Mark so much more than ever because I have so much I would like to tell him.

I wish things could have been different everyday but sadly wishing can’t alter the past. Nobody can change the past and the mistakes made. All we can do is learn from it and make an effort to do better now and onward.

At this time I think Artificial Intelligence is not advanced enough to handle most problems at facebook There needs to be more human support to assist and improve AI in managing problems and issues.

From my experience on the outside of things people have been seeking and demanding more Human support because the AI automation often fails to help people with their issues. I get messages all the time complaining about the automated system and begging me to help them with their various account issues or get them in contact with a real person that can help them. I wish I could help but I can’t help anybody. I don’t have contact with anyone from facebook I too send in bug tickets and report things and I don’t get any responses either. There are a lot of areas facebook needs to improve on and that is one of them.

I wish Mark all the best and everyone along side him that have nothing but genuine interest in protecting the integrity of facebook and making the necessary changes to better serve the World.

Hopefully 2019 will be a better year maybe someone will even have a kind heart to help Mark and I reconcile our past issues.

Mark Zuckerberg, Rosh Hashanah, Yom Kippur and a Story about 3 Kippahs/Yarmulkes

Mark Zuckerberg blew his Shofar for his family on the 2nd Eve of Rosh Hashanah (The Jewish New Year) which begins the ten days of penitence culminating in Yom Kippur.

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Photo: Mark Zuckerberg gracefully holding his Shofar.

I love that Mark and Priscilla share special celebrations between both of their religious faiths with The World on facebook. I am one of those people that love to be exposed to different cultures and religion, It’s fascinating to learn about the differences and similarities in beliefs and practices of different religions and cultures.

Mark was the first and only person to ever say “G’mar Chatima Tova” to me; which translates as “May you be inscribed for Good in the Book of Life”.

When Mark and I were friends I had a cleaning job where I cleaned 11-13 buildings everyday 6 days a week for minimum wage. One of the buildings I used to clean was a Jewish Synagogue. I am not Jewish I was raised Catholic/Christian. I remember being fascinated by The Jewish faith and the things I’d come across as I cleaned the Synagogue.

Since it is Yom Kippur (The Day of Atonement, Known as the holiest day of the year in Judaism) and it being a time of atonement and repentance I’ll share a silly story that I once shared with Mark.

As I mentioned earlier in this blog as I cleaned The Jewish Synagogue I found myself fascinated by the faith and things I’d come across in the Synagogue. There was this wooden box full of Kippahs/Yarmulkes … At the time I was telling Mark Zuckerberg my Story I didn’t know the proper name for them so I called them “Jew Hats”. I remember Mark laughed at me then quickly corrected me, calling them Kippahs/Yarmulkes.
But anyway there was this wooden box of Kippahs/Yarmulkes and every time I’d walk past it or was sweeping or mopping the floor next to it I’d find myself looking at that box and wondering how they stayed on the back of Jewish men’s heads without falling off! YES!! I would seriously ponder this thought every time. Then one day my friend that was cleaning the Synagogue with me just randomly said to me “Hey don’t you ever wonder how these things stay on people’s heads without falling off?” and I was like “UHH YEAH!!! every time I look at this box!” and she was like “I wanna try one on but I’m to scared to inside the Synagogue incase it’s wrong.” I said “Yeah, me too.”… eventually curiosity got the best of us and my friend took two Kippahs/Yarmulkes and put them in her pocket and I took one and put it in my pocket. After work we tried them on and another friend of ours wore the 3rd one. We ended up driving around the city wearing them on our heads and yelling Shalom to everyone we passed by on the street. We even went to some stores wearing the Kippahs/Yarmulkes on our heads and were acting really silly. finally when we decided it was time to go home we felt really bad for taking the Kippahs/Yarmulkes and acting really silly with them so we agreed we needed to return them ASAP!… but we didn’t know how to make it not obvious that we took them so… our plan was to stick them in the Mail slot in the main door to the Synagogue. So we acted out this whole Mission Impossible scene on our way to the Synagogue doors, doing summersaults and crawling on the lawn and hiding between bushes and stuff that lead to the path to the front doors… while making silly mission impossible noises finally when we reached the door of the Synagogue we shoved those Kippahs/Yarmulkes into the mail slot and ran for our lives back to the Car. Curiosity got the best of us, Still feel a bit guilty about what we did, but I guess at some point in our lives we all do silly things we regret. It’s up to us to make an effort to learn from our wrongs, Do what’s right and develop good character in our life time.

Shana Tova (a good and sweet year) to all that Celebrate Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur G’mar Chatima Tova (May you be inscribed for Good in the Book of Life).

In The Summertime

In The Summertime By: Mungo Jerry has been playing alot on the Radio lately.

The funny thing about this song is I can’t listen to it without a goofy smirk on my face, because It always reminds me of Mark Zuckerberg
He once told me a story about how this song reminded him of his Dad.

YES!! I am REAL!…I Exist!

I am The Real Jessica Alona , The girl known as The “B!tch” that Mark Zuckerberg wrote about in his Live Journal 10.28.03.

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I am also known as “Erica Albright” a character played by actress Rooney Mara in the award winning movie The Social Network  — that was written by Aaron Sorkin and directed by David Fincher.

Yes, I really do exist… A lot of misconceptions have been made.
I had a bigger influence on Mark and facebook than what has been perceived.

I never came forward or revealed my true Identity publicly because
I never wanted fame. I wanted to maintain my privacy from the start for various reasons.

I was around prior, during and after the launch of www.thefacebook.com up until the early months of 2005. That is one of the many facts that people don’t know.

It’s Official!

I finally have my own Official Website.

I am flattered that there are people out there that are curious about who I am, and have taken the time and interest to create profiles and websites about me and the character “Erica Albright” from The Social Network movie.

But due to those fake profiles and websites a lot of misconceptions have been made which prompted me to create my own Official website.

This is my first website. I don’t have anyone helping me with it. I am doing it entirely on my own so there will be a lot of random revisions and changes to the site from time to time because I am self learning as I go.

The purpose of this website is to tell a bit about my story, Who I am, and what I am all about to those that are genuinely curious. I didn’t create this website to prove myself to anyone. If Mark still has hard feelings and wants to pretend I never existed. There is nothing I can do about that, but keep hoping that one day we can reconcile and move past the falling out that we had. Mark knows the truth regardless and that is all that truly matters.

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